Thursday, June 3, 2010

Somebody's drinking our last ration of victory gin; I'm sober as sin.

Time waits for no man.

The world is a wide open place, and it's up to us to discover it in our own way. I know what it's like to give up completely, on anything and everything. But I also know what it's like to find that fight again. Buried deep in the recesses of my mind was the will to keep going on.I was nearly homeless. But due to the good graces of some people, I was able to get my footing.

It can be terrifying, too, at times. Because this time there is absolutely no
going back. The thing is...I know for a fact I don't want too.

I think about those I've lost contact with and the reasons for it and I kind of feel like...yeah, maybe it was for the best. For whatever reason we were negative spots in each others lives, and truth be told I don't think I've ever been happier.

Because life is new again. That wanton desire to explore, to see, to try new things again is there, and it beats harder in my chest than my heart.

So I sit here wondering where I'm going next. But I know I'm going to enjoy it more than ever,
because this time...fuck, it just really...really counts this time.

Inspiration in a time like this is absolutely crucial.

See, a while ago I began writing a book called Open Roads and Brick Walls. But for whatever reasons I could never seem to just end it. Later on in the book it just became, not necessarily a laborious and tedious process...just one I couldn't figure out exactly what tonality to leave off with.

But it's times like this good tunes and good visuals really inspire the desire to exist, live, breathe
and explore the depths and crevasses most people wouldn't dare.

It can end in only one way...

See it boils down to this: I don't want to wait for life to get better. And I hope no one else wants to wait for it to get better. If it sucks, go out and change it. Every one has a bunch of sad stories,
and I empathize with that. But why leave off on sorrow?

We can be a lot more.

So we work, we play...and what else that fills up the time between, well, that's there too.

Giving up on yourself is one of the most desolate feelings in the world.

I want to concur every great city in my own way. I want to work during the day, explore during the night and sleep when I'm d-e-a-d. And I plan on doing just that.

Stay safe, and until next time, make sure to check out some truly awesome and visually inspiring
pictures. They're gonna evoke a reaction out of you that's going to
make you want to go out and get a camera and get in touch with your inner shutter bug. And while you're at it, buy something.

P.S: Below I've included a few of my pictures as well.
See, this is gonna be the summer of photography....

Toltec, Arizona. Oh, the joys of urban exploration.

Southern California.

Every where I go, they have make a fuss...

Awesome skyline.

Outside of a homeless shelter.

See you on the other side of the shutter.

1 comment:

. said...

Hello, stranger.

Strange, but you seem familiar already. Like somebody I should know, or maybe you just have a gift for speaking little pieces of my mind.

I'm glad you saw my comment on your other post--I was hoping you would. I'd go back every few days and wonder if you'd seen it, maybe just so that you'd know that somebody was able to connect with your writing, and possibly more--you'd see the way your words can hit me.

I like this post, sober as sin, it's like reading a time-line of how things happen with little bits of myself woven in.

I've felt so dead inside since last October, I think, but lately something has changed. I'm not sure if it's my apathy towards all things unchangeable, or if it's my vigor in changing the things that I can. My life is dull, my life is adventure.
Everything I do means nothing and everything all at once.

I like your desire to explore. I've been exploring too. My neighborhood, my river, my mountains, valleys, and inhabitants thereof.

I've begun to develop a no-shit attitude, but not in the in your face, F-off, asshole ways. More like what you were saying--don't wait for life to get better, go out and change it.

I've been trying.

Did you know I'm an amateur photographer? I liked your pictures. I'll probably post some of mine on my blog tonight.

I was going to go try to sleep, but my roomate&co. are watching Fight Club on my bed and unfortunately, sir, you've peaked my curiosity to the point where I can't sleep.
Oh. And did I mention, you've also assisted in providing me with inspiration?

Yes, Aaron, once again you have done it. I'd mark this as a win/win for you.

With that said,

I'm going to go finish pouring myself out on my page.

Thank you, Aaron.